I started thinking of all the things I did achieve in a few years. Some of these goals had an age attached to it. And most of those dreams I never achieved on that age. But there are challenges in life connected to the things. Life gives you challenges in the good and the bad. So what battle should I choose to fight?
For awhile I have been battling the challenge called relationships. And it doesn’t consist of a healthy relationship and surely not one where I am in a ‘society-base’ relationship. I am talking about wanting to be in a ‘society-base’ relationship and trying to achieve that goal, which is such waste of time and energy to focus on. Why do I keep running after that type of relationship- making it work? This is part of life, you would say. Yes… but not where my focus should be.
I keep saying I need to focus on my work life, career life & personal life challenges. I do that too and still I am not feeling balanced and in peace with my own choices. That should mean something. I hate to be confronted with myself and when I get confronted- I think as an over-thinker, and when I think I am ready or I make myself ready to confront my fears: I am in a state I feel relieved. A state I want to stay in.
For awhile I believed society (friends and family) I would always be alone, I would be an old spinster etc. I believed I needed to have someone in my life to be completed and than achieve things like a house and a child. Now, this same society tells you, you can achieve it without- and in that same society people don’t really now how to act to each other.
The only thing I can do is: choose for myself, right. And that also means that whenever that same society tells and prove you otherwise- you stay true to what you are. What and Who you are will reflect in your actions, not only what you do, also your saying, and words you choose to communicate (your mindset).
My battles are be my continues personal developments, my career and life choices that only serve one thing: Making Me HAPPY, truly Happy from the inside, by just being ME. My battle is my mindset- changing it to make ME HAPPY, Balanced and in Peace with myself.