For awhile now, I have been unhappy with my life. I was still trying to combinate two things in life. 1. Being Myself and going for the things that really make me happy and 2. trying to fit in my mothers view of what society wants.
Somewhere in 2016 I made evaluation. I put certain tings in perspectives. The conclusion is; I believed by doing the things my mom wanted, she would see I was miserable and than she would realize I don’t want the things she wanted for me. On the same note I did what I wanted for ME. You could say I lived in conflict with myself for, at that awareness, 7 years and finally 10 years by now, I am letting go, step by step to be closer to myself. It is still a working in process mentality.
Her voice that I hear is softer. I am reframing my believe systems, I am getting aligned with my own core values, I do what makes me happy and having a partner in my life? I can have a partner when I just do what I think is important for me. He will understand. Wanting a partner when I am not entirely fulfilled with myself is a waste of my time and his. On the other hand I can’t add a partner in my career when it works the other way around. Others may have a husband, start a family and then fulfill a career. Unfortunately, I have chosen a different order in my heart, and I have to support that. I have learned enough in this area!
I am walking further and learn new stuff. Let’s make this work. Career, I am ready for you.