In life you meet certain points where you wonder were you stand. Before you asked yourself that- you got so mad at a few things friends did, which you didn’t even know where that important to you. The behavior is that one thing you recognize where your own frustration comes from: the behavior the other person shows, and you get irritated.
It lies on my beliefs system; what is my fundament of my beliefs (not religion), then I see a pattern of certain core values and principles I always stand for (I can die for these core values and principles), my education only plays a small part (Education gives you the skills to find your ways in society and it’s system), what does play a huge part is cognitive intelligence (the ability and the skill to think beyond a education system) and the emotional maturity ( to be aware, to observe, to pick up certain energy, making new choices build on old pattern or society base nurture).
When I know who I am, what I stand for, what really bothers me, so whenever I look in the eyes of dead- I will defend it with my own life. This is not an easy job. It is hard and also simple. I only have to know where my motives lies, what my intentions are and what my perception is: Fear or Love. I mentioned before that it is very hard to do all this above, and you agree with me. I also said it is simple, because it is like investing in a friend, you really like and love, but the difference is, is that that friend is yourself. It also, becomes simple and second nature when you practice being your own friend. You love your friend unconditionally (meaning with every positive and negative quarks that friend has). Why not for yourself?
I agree that confronting one self is never easy. Most of the time it hurts to accept ME- where I stand, that I am not even at the place I wanted to be. The time I accepted it with my heart and my mind, my body didn’t fear to start the process, which still is and will be a process (we Human). I had to take the pain NOW. I am glad I started that process of awareness, accepting… The phase I am is putting it into practice, every day. And even when I make some human mistakes, which are ok, I try not to blame myself, I just say: I’m Sorry, and I start the process over. I took for some parts in my life the responsibility, I take myself accountable for my actions and also take full ownership of everything in my life. NOT an easy job- but a WELL Fulfilled one. I KNOW… I have Experienced it already. I feel fulfilled, my heart is heavenly proud of myself.
You can start too… when you are ready <3