I feel that I need to give it time.
I know in the state of mind he wants to be or say he is- I am the woman he dreams of.
That is always so. I am the dream- but not the reality.
How will I be the reality?
The thing is I can’t be the reality of that man- I just can’t- because I am just not his reality.
Even though I think he might be my reality.
It is already a fact- that I need to let go of the control that I want to be in someone’s life who just shows you are not the person he wants to spend it with.
To accept it is so hard- that’s why it is proper not to use sex as a tool to keep the men.
It may be so good- if you are not the right woman for him- you will never be.
Not yesterday, not today, and not tomorrow, not even after so many awful years of seeking.
I need to give myself time- whatever I feel is good- and it is for me.