What is my the challenge?
I love attention; men’s attention.
The feeling I get from it is- ooh, I feel very much in control and have power, because they want me again, which allows me to decide if I give it to them or not. They get the vibe; -the door is ajar- find your limits. Am still in esteem with them, despite being in a committed relationship.
What are the intention, a challenge to figure out?!
The above is a scam- just like the chat I just received about a prize I won from Samsung- which I have not used for quite some time.
It is a delusion or make-believe feeling or make-believe thought.
What is the actual intention of the men? They want sex.
When I already know that, then it’s easier to keep yourself away from these kinds of figures, right!
When you already know that the men you are talking to again have not grown further in their thinking, then that is also much easier not to waste your energy, right?!
But it’s still a slightly more difficult ‘easy-say-than-done’ statement. There is imbalance and I know that-something about that aspect has not yet fully penetrated what exactly drives the thought, feeling and possible action. I do know that it comes from my childhood and that something happened in my upbringing by my father or my mother.
What exactly do I want to hear? What am I looking for that I don’t have in a person? What am I insecure about when I already have a partner who super adores me? Do, I still not believe in it myself? What drives the desire to want to hear, see and feel something in other men. It won’t be because of my partner’s treatment. He is 100% for this relationship to work and I am not blind to that, only I have noticed that now that I am back, I am going to have to avoid specific situations so as not to make unnecessary noise in something that is good and grounded.
I do want to confront it, because it won’t do me any good to avoid it either. When I know the cause, I can accept it, and move on, with even more satisfaction at my growth and the results I continue to achieve, thanks to the protection of God.
