Going through my writings stuff- as old notebooks- I see a few things I wrote down one year ago. Applying for the National Junior Diplomatic Program and the Hubert Humphrey Fellowship. I got accepted at both of the programs. Looking back makes me proud. If COVID-19 didn’t come this year, I would have prepared for departure a couple of months from now. Still leaving next year for the second program. Another thing is me leaving my old job. Being a journalist, camjo, for 9 years, made me re-evaluate my life’s decisions. I haven’t reached my full potential yet, and I choose a career shift. The challenge I took to become a communication officer differs from a journalist. You can’t even think to combine those two. I also resign my position and membership at the Journalism union. You have to be a journalist or working for a news media outlet and I am not even doing it part time to become a special member of the union. Not only do I see scrabbles of career opportunities. I see scrabbles of thoughts within the subject of designing life or business opportunities. Let’s make this public!
De lockdown
How am I coping with the lockdown? In Suriname we couldn’t talk of a lockdown, because Surinamese people are very hard headed people. We won’t do something when we don’t see the benefit of the whole lockdown. Corruption is very high in this country, so when you have allies or people working in the government. Having a pass to travel in the country is easy to get. Multinationals are still producing within the COVID-19 lockdown. It is the people of the lower level of this society, who doesn’t have any work, stay at home with no money at all, small business who has to innovate, and also doesn’t need employee, because they aren’t making profit. I get a little frustrated. I am used to go out on the streets, hang out with friends, go to the movies, and take a long drive. There was all my escape to not do what I mostly love- writing. I do write, occasionally. The thing is I could go out, out of my safest space, no restrictions made, and now you are restricted by the government. You feel like all the dystopia movies you once saw, for example; ‘The Divergent trilogy’ or ‘What happened to Monday’. I get bored by social- media. There is nothing social about that platform. Everyone is either angry, jealous & vicious at, proud of, agreeing to, turning against, supporting and defending a system that will not be beneficial for us on the long run. We will be divided into groups and it may seem for the best to have one supporting system. In the end it shall bite us in our fucking ass.
Crushing hard <3
I think I am crushing on my colleague. I think I liked him before I ever started working with him, and I knew I was out of his league. Why would a handsome guy with his caliber look at a girl like me?
Continue reading “Crushing hard <3”I always want to start with a sentence starting with ‘it’
In my head I know what I want to write about. The words are there. Still having a (digital) blank piece of paper is not the guarantee your words will magically appear on it. It counts when you make effort.
Recently in one of my post I wrote ask a question and gave an answer. It could be a subject hard to digest, a mouthful he said. Maybe because of the length and the depth, it is written. A friend suggested that I write in paragraphs or one topic at a time or in one question with some sub questions. People reading my story shouldn’t want to change 20 things in their life in one moment.
Continue reading “I always want to start with a sentence starting with ‘it’”‘U ever get turned on/off by somebody’s mindset? Like damn… You think like that?’
I know a lot of you reading this quote will agree and say: ‘YES’ with capital letters. Tell me one thing. Are you still with that person now that you reading this quote? Most of you aren’t with that person who turned you on with his/her mindset.
Why?
Continue reading “‘U ever get turned on/off by somebody’s mindset? Like damn… You think like that?’”Time
I feel that I need to give it time.
I know in the state of mind he wants to be or say he is- I am the woman he dreams of.
That is always so. I am the dream- but not the reality.
How will I be the reality?
Continue reading “Time”Focus on who?
‘I think the only way to be happy is not to focus on him and on me.’
That is so easy to say, right?
Continue reading “Focus on who?”When you are busy with yourself
When you are busy with yourself- there is no other person misleading you. Not a person persé but also things I want to distract myself from. There isn’t any, because those distractions will also become boring. Its like you aren’t satisfied with your life. Let’s say; still not satisfied with your own life. Watching Netflix and seeing all these stories- the only thing popping out in my head is that these stories are daily struggles stories. The ones I watch. You know, I watch the drama, comedy, life, chick flick kind of stories. And these stories I can also write for television. It shouldn’t be difficult; they are basically the same as my stories. I still see my life as one big film, of course part of a much bigger film. Just putting up some good music, and then my mind wanders for my own story that reveals itself in my head. Do you think writers write with music that inspires them to great stories? I should google this ?
Where am I now?
Where am I now?
I am here. I woke up. I got a change to take on this day, I can achieve my challenge in a broader way.
Continue reading “Where am I now?”Your Favorite Story
Your favorite story, whatever it may be, is written for one person- 5 to 7, a 2014 movie.
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