Category: A Story to Tell

Everyone has there own process of ‘whatever you might think of’. Yes, even I have that. I realize that I am not going to settle easily. What do I mean by that? Before I settle in a stable, secure partnership where I feel that I have accomplished everything within my career, I feel that I need to do just that last thing- go and fulfill myself with the one thing I know will make me the happiest person on earth.

I need to share this. It has taken me awhile to figure a few things out. One of the things is Who I am vs Who I want to be. The difference is one comes from deep within you and doesn’t care about societies expectations, which for the other is entirely based on societies expectation. How do I know? I have been busy with my own personal development for quite awhile now. I need to start doing stuff, and before I do that let me recall that these makes me very very very HAPPY from the INSIDE

On October 2012 I had this session with Matt Booth; Be Yourself Improve Yourself. At this workshop I need to make me a list of goals to achieve. Every time that you reach a goal you check it off, email him and write a new one. Do this yearly to check up on yourself. The second thing, mailing him, I did not do. I think I need to mail him, because I did check a few.

This was a rewritten one in 2015- there are 26 goals ?

Here we go ?

Going through my writings stuff- as old notebooks- I see a few things I wrote down one year ago. Applying for the National Junior Diplomatic Program and the Hubert Humphrey Fellowship. I got accepted at both of the programs. Looking back makes me proud. If COVID-19 didn’t come this year, I would have prepared for departure a couple of months from now. Still leaving next year for the second program. Another thing is me leaving my old job. Being a journalist, camjo, for 9 years, made me re-evaluate my life’s decisions. I haven’t reached my full potential yet, and I choose a career shift. The challenge I took to become a communication officer differs from a journalist. You can’t even think to combine those two. I also resign my position and membership at the Journalism union. You have to be a journalist or working for a news media outlet and I am not even doing it part time to become a special member of the union. Not only do I see scrabbles of career opportunities. I see scrabbles of thoughts within the subject of designing life or business opportunities. Let’s make this public!

I think I am crushing on my colleague. I think I liked him before I ever started working with him, and I knew I was out of his league. Why would a handsome guy with his caliber look at a girl like me?

I know a lot of you reading this quote will agree and say: ‘YES’ with capital letters. Tell me one thing. Are you still with that person now that you reading this quote? Most of you aren’t with that person who turned you on with his/her mindset.

Why?

I feel that I need to give it time.

I know in the state of mind he wants to be or say he is- I am the woman he dreams of.

That is always so. I am the dream- but not the reality.

How will I be the reality?