For awhile now, I have been unhappy with my life. I was still trying to combinate two things in life. 1. Being Myself and going for the things that really make me happy and 2. trying to fit in my mothers view of what society wants.
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I need to share this. It has taken me awhile to figure a few things out. One of the things is Who I am vs Who I want to be. The difference is one comes from deep within you and doesn’t care about societies expectations, which for the other is entirely based on societies expectation. How do I know? I have been busy with my own personal development for quite awhile now. I need to start doing stuff, and before I do that let me recall that these makes me very very very HAPPY from the INSIDE
Continue reading “Happy from the INSIDE”Why am I still Holding back on ME
I still haven’t found my mojo. Not finding my mojo results in not doing anything> I don’t have a purpose or a sense in this world. A lot is happening in the world. People are ‘seeing’ how the system works and how it controlled our way of living, that hold us back to strive. My story is more of one of individual matter. Even if the world is getting to it’s ‘end’. I have an individual life to obtain.
Continue reading “Why am I still Holding back on ME”My 1st life-changing Friendship Break-up that really hurt
I had my first friendship break-up around 2007 if I can recall. It was with a girl, not in a romantic way. Since I got into the academy of Journalism we became very good friends. That is what I used to think it was.
Continue reading “My 1st life-changing Friendship Break-up that really hurt”Choose your battle
I started thinking of all the things I did achieve in a few years. Some of these goals had an age attached to it. And most of those dreams I never achieved on that age. But there are challenges in life connected to the things. Life gives you challenges in the good and the bad. So what battle should I choose to fight?
Continue reading “Choose your battle”A Guardian Angel
I had this weird moment, today- 29th of June 2020. Do you believe in angels?
Never been Loved
I received a video with a note; Do you want to make new memories? My heart stopped when I saw it and my desires for him grew again or it seems it was never gone. For the past months that I didn’t have sex with the person I wanted to have sex with and connect on more levels I felt good about myself. I haven’t thought about sex in such a way as the day I saw the video. The day I did consider it was the moment I thought I was missing on a hug- yesterday or the day after. My conclusion is that my hugs are going together with having sex. So, the hug that I keep referring to; to feel safe, to feel supported, and to feel loved I took that within casual sex.
Continue reading “Never been Loved”Good Habits
To create and sustain good habits there are a few things people all over the world write on their list.
I found 17 things you and I can do to sustain a good habit.
Continue reading “Good Habits”I am Insecure
Whenever I think I am not good enough or I am insecure about me I need to read this;
This is a list from a very good person- he is a writer like me- but his specialty is poems. He wrote this for me in 2015, when I was doubting myself in a lot of things and very, very, very insecure.
Continue reading “I am Insecure”Reviewing my goals of 2015
On October 2012 I had this session with Matt Booth; Be Yourself Improve Yourself. At this workshop I need to make me a list of goals to achieve. Every time that you reach a goal you check it off, email him and write a new one. Do this yearly to check up on yourself. The second thing, mailing him, I did not do. I think I need to mail him, because I did check a few.
This was a rewritten one in 2015- there are 26 goals ?
Here we go ?
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