My Stories - PeriXcope

October 17, 2021October 31, 2021

A playlist for every story to tell

Why haven’t I written in so long? The short answer is that I have had so much self awareness, that at a certain point I was to content with myself and it was not necessary to share anymore, at least for me. I thought that I have no specific story to tell.

Nobody has not nothing to say. It’s almost impossible; even the person with a standard life pattern has something to tell, even though it is a story of getting up, going to work, getting back home – sleep and repeat. One day something might change.

April 13, 2021October 31, 2021

How should dating 101 be, like in a movie?

My perspective on dating is from movies. Movies has romanticize love and dating. ‘You are at a party and never recognized this young man, who saw you before you even notice him. There were three moments in life where you meet. One day you bumped into him and noticed his eyes. ‘Sorry’. ‘It’s ok’ he says. Than you start wondering and looked back at him- ‘Have we met?’ ‘I think so,’ he says, ‘maybe you will not recognize me, but I have seen you at three parties’. ‘You mean the New Years Eve parties?’ ‘Yes.’ As you are you are curious and want to know more, of why you never talked. What happend in the movie is that this story leads to a very cute, and super awesome story with a much more complicated twist, but both seem to figure it out in the end.

January 25, 2021

Continue the process of realization 2.0: Dating & Relationship

The realization on dating & relationship I have the past month haven’t changed. Well, maybe a little bit, but not drastically. What haven’t change is the way I viewed my dating & relationship. My relationship has mostly been intimate and sexual. In 2019 I experienced a more personal & romantic relation with another person. Currently I am living in the United States of America for 6 months. The prior goal for me staying in this ‘land of opportunity’ is because of a fellowship. You already kind of know me; a people person that needs connection. In addition to the fellows who also participate in this fellowship, I want to get to know new people, in this COVID time. What is the best time? What shall my approach be?

December 8, 2020July 26, 2024

NOT SO GOOD NEWS, BUT STILL THE BEST

After receiving my approved letter/mail from the U.S. Embassy in Suriname around February this year, that I made it through the application of the Hubert H. Humphrey fellowship, the waiting started. The program starts somewhere in August 2020 till June 2021. But the whole world started to change- not knowing that this would happen; A ‘pandemic’ started. ‘The COVID-19 pandemic.’

December 1, 2020July 26, 2024

Accepting the Humphrey Exchange Program

CONGRATULATIONS!

Waiting in agony I got an email Monday, February 24th 2020, about this fellowship. I have applied for the third time and FINALLY, IT HAPPEND.

November 11, 2020November 11, 2020

I shall burn my 1 diary for self-development and growth

What should I do with my diary, scribbles and notes? Hold on to it is the first reaction you can think of. It is part of your ‘healing’ process, some say. My diary has been my process of evaluation, without it I would have felt lost, or unaccomplished. I needed to write and scribble a lot to get my thoughts organized. I needed to read it occasionally so, I would acknowledge my growth and my process. I felt unachieved, and with the diary I knew- I was on the right path, somehow. But the diaries, notes and scribbles I have, I feel that they have fulfilled there purpose and I should move on.

October 26, 2020

Process of Realization

Everyone has there own process of ‘whatever you might think of’. Yes, even I have that. I realize that I am not going to settle easily. What do I mean by that? Before I settle in a stable, secure partnership where I feel that I have accomplished everything within my career, I feel that I need to do just that last thing- go and fulfill myself with the one thing I know will make me the happiest person on earth.

October 24, 2020July 26, 2024

Personal Branding vs Overexposure

What is personal branding? For me it is to consistently promote yourself with a message you stand behind with your life. It sounds pretty intense. Who would die for their brand, right?

Multi Purposed Logo

What is overexposure? For me it feels like consistently with a certain message to promote yourself where it irritates. Does the irritation happens to everyone or just to me and maybe a certain group of people.

October 4, 2020July 26, 2024

Start asking for help when you feel ready

In life you meet certain points where you wonder were you stand. Before you asked yourself that- you got so mad at a few things friends did, which you didn’t even know where that important to you. The behavior is that one thing you recognize where your own frustration comes from: the behavior the other person shows, and you get irritated.

October 3, 2020October 4, 2020

Proud!

I made a list to see if I did achieve the things I said I wanted in my life. Before 2020 ends I can proudly state:

I made my business card with a logo (last year)
I made a logo for the first lady- Leading Lady (last year)
I use my business logo also as part of my personal branding logo
I have concept blog, where I just write my stories (Soon will have my own domain)
I work independently (no 9-5 job) and as freelancer
I have gained a few pounds (Yeah!)
I got the scholarship and it still proceeding
I earn more than SRD 5000 per month (*SRD is the currency of Suriname-South America, between Guyana and French-Guyana)

A new thing to add, that wasn’t part of 2020:

– With Corona (COVD-19) happening all around the world I made one new friend from abroad and we have long in-depth calls.

There are more on the list, and if I keep doing this, taking small steps. It will be no problem to reach all I really want.