A mistake not worth making for the 3th time. I can be better; fixing is just the same as growing, right?

Mistake needs to be make to be better to grow

The last couple of days in the New Year after my birthday, I have tried to talk reason into a mistake. This mistake is one that I don’t look back too. I don’t know if this mistake put a dumper on me or if it is more. For me to cope with this I stated a few things: don’t tell if it will put a Dench in the relationship or if it might create mistrust. It was an act of selfishness. The question might rise; What is this mistake and why not being honest? Because, I am not proud of it. I don’t want to do it again and I don’t want to create this crack in the wall. I want to put it behind me and be better, from this point on.

January 2, 2023July 26, 2024

Happy New Year! Welcome 2023. Are we having a new year new me kind of resolution?

Lets start by wishing you a fulfilled and prosperous New Year. It is rather cliche- every year the same wishes and the making of new resolutions going into the new year. I would state that I am very proud of you, that means that I am also proud of myself. We made it through 2022. Be proud! Take the knowledge and wisdom to 2023. We are going to make it through too, even if it is too early to state that. Let God guide you in this journey.

December 26, 2022January 29, 2023

Dutch Article: The Reason I am bored.

I am bored; but what is the reason?

Wat betekent het woord balen? In het Nederlands woordenboek staat balen omschreven als ‘iets heel erg vinden’ of ‘zich ergeren aan iets vervelends of saais’, maar een ander betekenis kan zijn ‘lusteloos voelen’. Lusteloos is als je nergens zin in heb- er is ook heel weinig tot geen beweging. In het Engels staat er ‘the state of being weary and restless through lack of interest’. Dus vrij vertaald staat er ‘de staat van vermoeid en rusteloos zijn door gebrek aan interesse’. Welk gebrek aan interesse zou je denken?

June 20, 2022January 29, 2023

A misconception I can’t stand by

There is this misconception in the world that people without a certain degree, knowledge (studied it), experiences (children) and everything you can think of, doesn’t have the right to say, give advice or their opinion on the matter.

It triggers me, because the lack of that type of understanding is mind-blowing for me.

March 13, 2022January 29, 2023

How I deal with a long-distance relationship- not easy. 1 thing we keep having starts with a C; life-changing

Love Language to work a Long-Distance Relationship

Since July 17th, 2021 I am in a long-distance relationship with my American boyfriend. I am surviving it, but it hasn’t been easy. The relationship itself stands on its own and the only work we needed to do is communicating with each other. Constant and every day conversations. What t.f. would we communicate about every single day, you might ask? Well, for starters about his day, or mine. Me wanting to just have someone to listen to me, while he still sleeps. Keep in mind that our time difference is -4 hours on his side. When he still sleeps, my day already is bright and sunny or rainy, depends on the season. And the best part most of the times is his handsome face I just want to see or be annoyed by.

December 12, 2021December 12, 2021

My top 1 challenge to confront

What is my the challenge?
I love attention; men’s attention.
The feeling I get from it is- ooh, I feel very much in control and have power, because they want me again, which allows me to decide if I give it to them or not. They get the vibe; -the door is ajar- find your limits. Am still in esteem with them, despite being in a committed relationship.

October 31, 2021November 5, 2021

Part 1: A story of a guest writer not being published because of her insecurity

Due to my own insecurity I missed an opportunity to be published as a guest writer. Around 2019 a friend I know asked me to write a guest post on a few topics concerning the female perspectives. I shared a lot of my personal experiences with men up close on Facebook. My insecurity let me postponed her request many many times. Finally on March, 13th 2020, I wrote the guest post. Till last year I haven’t seen my post on her blog and as of last night her blog is not active ‘This site can’t be reached’. I missed on a good opportunity to be published as a guest writer.

To be honest, I haven’t texted her about her blog, yet. It is also two years that the story was written. I follow her and she is pretty busy with her personal & professional life. And since I am starting to be more consistent I could just write the story on my own blog. I read the story again and I definitely should rewrite it, which I will do. Don’t worry – I will use the written story – but I will put it with more flow and coherence.

January 25, 2021

Continue the process of realization 2.0: Dating & Relationship

The realization on dating & relationship I have the past month haven’t changed. Well, maybe a little bit, but not drastically. What haven’t change is the way I viewed my dating & relationship. My relationship has mostly been intimate and sexual. In 2019 I experienced a more personal & romantic relation with another person. Currently I am living in the United States of America for 6 months. The prior goal for me staying in this ‘land of opportunity’ is because of a fellowship. You already kind of know me; a people person that needs connection. In addition to the fellows who also participate in this fellowship, I want to get to know new people, in this COVID time. What is the best time? What shall my approach be?

November 11, 2020November 11, 2020

I shall burn my 1 diary for self-development and growth

What should I do with my diary, scribbles and notes? Hold on to it is the first reaction you can think of. It is part of your ‘healing’ process, some say. My diary has been my process of evaluation, without it I would have felt lost, or unaccomplished. I needed to write and scribble a lot to get my thoughts organized. I needed to read it occasionally so, I would acknowledge my growth and my process. I felt unachieved, and with the diary I knew- I was on the right path, somehow. But the diaries, notes and scribbles I have, I feel that they have fulfilled there purpose and I should move on.